Archive for October 2014

The Perfect One


He found the camera on Craigslist. He had been looking for quite some time and it just never felt right. When he found this one, somehow he just knew it was "the one". I am convinced that it was really the person that gained his attention more than it was the camera, or at least a combination of the two. He talked about it for a day, mostly about how great it was that the man was a photography professor at university. "He seems sincere, thoughtful. He understands. I know it is just Craigslist..." Once we both gave the green light, he sent the email.

With only one car, he sent me to meet with the Professor. I found myself in downtown San Jose, sitting at a corner table in a Starbucks waiting for... Well, I wasn't actually sure who he was. Z told me to look for the man in the blue shirt and much to my surprise, there were five men in different shades of blue. I looked around and studied each one, looking for anything that might resemble a camera box. I almost felt like some sort of criminal or maybe a detective, I don't know, so I stopped and waited. At 3:30, I looked out the front door and saw an older man in a blue button down shirt. I knew it had to be him. I walked out, looked his way, and before I could say a word, "Roxi? Hi! My name is Brian!"

We sat down at a table and that's where we would stay for the next hour. We talked photography but I had to admit to him that I was not so knowledgeable. So he spoke about his art and I spoke about Z's. Photography led us to education. We talked about young minds. Creativity. The teacher life. Being aware. How having a "No Computer" policy IS a good idea. People, especially younger people, have such a hard time connecting with others sometimes. Because most of the time, there is a screen in the way. The "brick wall" of this generation is technology. I know it is a good thing but not when you can no longer be present. History, art, so many other areas demand that we be present. That we engage. He told me I had an old soul and I said thank you. 

At the end of our time together, he told me that he wished Z could have been there with us. I wished the same. I told him thank you, snapped his photo with our new camera, and we went our separate ways. 
 




A New Beginning

For quite some time, going on two years-ish, I have found myself lacking the ability to put my thoughts into writing outside of my own personal journal and that too has suffered on and off, if I am going to stick to the theme of "keeping it real". Obviously, two years is a long time. It also comes with a little bit of pain because when you find release in something like writing, not doing it can almost have a damaging affect on you. 

With that said, I make no claims to be a good writer:) It is simply something that I enjoy doing. There are many things that I am passionate about and most times, the best way for me to express how I truly feel is by writing. I think that is why I have always enjoyed writing letters. Because writing gives me just a second to truly think about what it is that I actually want to say and the writing follows the thought. It keeps me from blurting out nonsense although, a lot of times, I find nonsense in my own writing. Being thoughtful almost seems like a lost art in this day and age so I want to try to hold onto that. Writing has always been an important part of that process for me. 

I went back to the place where I wrote for many years but I felt like I couldn't continue there so I will begin my new journey here. I don't actually know how invested people are in reading blogs anymore with so many other options, but I'm not too worried about it. This will be a place more focused on writing about things I love, stories, etc. with photos here and there. But I do have a link to my photo place above just in case you are curious:)

Happy reading and thank you for reading,

Roxi